I’m giving myself a challenge this October. I’m sure other ppl are doing similar journal/diary-writing challenges, but I don’t know what they’re called, and my googling failed me. I could’ve googled more, but it’s also half an hour to the end of Oct 1, so here we go.
Yes, I’m gonna try doing one entry a day. This year is such a particular year for the black hole of memory retention, especially since i ran out of pages for my cincai daily log and i haven’t gotten around to filling up a new one properly. I wasn’t even bullet journalling, what more any of the nice plans I had at the beginning of the year.
Ah! 20 more minutes.
Yet, I have been doing a lot of stuff, as you may suspect from my last post. I’ve been joking with colleagues that my 2020 hobby is picking up new hobbies, and they’re… comprehensive. I was going to segue this into it being an expression of my ADHD more elegantly but let’s just go with I just wrote.
I’m now proper ADHD medication! Turns out when I lose structure, I really lose structure, so am now on some methylphenidates, since amphetamines are still illegal for prescription in this country. They’ve been helping, but I’m also trying to recapture or redefine my sense of daily achievement because oh man, who has been properly productive this year? and not in an externally driven way - apparently i’m one of those ADHD people who learned early on to find work that resonated with my values, so I was feeling frustrated at my inability to demonstrate that.
Throughout it all, I am extremely lucky to be in the position I’ve found in, professionally and personally, so while I know I’m spinning out, I’m also… visibly functional?
Perhaps related to it all I’m now spending a lot more time on twitter lol.
So a combination of brain chemistry + psychology meant I was suffering from some kind of perfectionism in trying to update this newsletter, and basically I was paralysed by the various media options I can embed in a post, and I kept drafting and drafting in my head, a neverending post that had to be continually revised to reflect the numerous internal timestamps i had blown past. the tweets i wanted to show, the videos i wanted to share, the links i’d like to keep here. and the commentaries, oh the commentaries. inheriting preacher genes honestly is more trouble than its worth.
so u know what, let’s just post. maybe on ‘slow’ days i’ll post about them.
(maybe i should keep a running list…)
11 more minutes!
So! Happy Mid-Autumn Festival! I haven’t got any mooncake yet, but that’s okay. Someone wished the work chat such this morning and one of the international staff was like, I thought we’d be in spring, but no, we’re technically still north of the equatorial line, and if this monsoon continues the way it does, up north in both our landmassses and the highlands will probably have our own tropical winter again.
There’s so much I want to cover, but let’s just start with two:
This Kedahan Man Creates Batik of Anime & Manga Characters
and